Life goes on

Tax season is coming to an end so that means that I don't have to spend so much time in front of the computer with my head buried and nose to the grindstone. I am going back to my old work routine and more fun time spent with the kids. I just hope that the weather changes here soon so that we can get out and enjoy some time together. I feel lucky that the weather has been awful lately as I have been stuck inside working. So I haven't felt like I have missed much.

I took the kids to Northland Village to see "Miss Spider's Sunny Patch". What and experince that was. It felt that there were millions of peole crammed into a couple of square feet of space. But the kids loved it and had fun dancing and singing with Miss Spider. So I guess every once in a while it's worth my discomfort be give them an experience like that.

I was thinking of taking Lolo to Thomas who is rolling into Heritage Park on my birthday, but it is just too much money and I don't even know if that price gets you into the park. And really they don't get much for the money that parents are expected to dole out for this experience. I guess he won't care cause I am not telling him.

My birthday is coming up and I still have no idea what Sean is going to do or IF he is doing anything at all.

Sean is going to be in school here again May 4 for another couple of months. So I am stressed to the max about money as there will be none for 2 months. Well there is EI..but that really doesn't count.

Rumours

I know a little about them and the effect that they have on people.

Six years ago when I started dating Sean....well let me start farther back. In High School, Sean had this one friend and the 2 of them were pretty inseperable. Now let's fast forward a few years, this friend got married and the twosome became a threesome. All of a sudden things change...normal right? One would think. This couple tried to keep Sean down..ok that's my opinion, but judging from what they did I would say this is a valid opinion.

Ok back to 6 years ago, Sean and I started dating and this couple started spreading rumours about me and how I was doing all these things to Sean and was stopping him from having a relationship with his daughter. Well, Sean didn't listen to them and asked me to marry him, the rumours then got worse and all of a sudden I was no good for him and he should call off his wedding because I was wrecking his relationship with his daughter. According to this couple (now remember they were good "friends" and I thought one was a friend of mine)I had forced him (now if you know Sean you know how riduculous that is since no one can force him to do anything)to do a bunch of things (I won't go into detail as that is not my point in this post).
The wedding day came closer and these "friends" choose to be somewhere else then at the wedding of a very good friend. Which was fine by me since after all that was said about me I really didn't want them there anyway. But it wasn't just about me it was about Sean too and he wanted them there, so for him I was upset by that.
Their friendship was never the same after that and then all of a sudden it seemed to end I never knew why at the time, and have since come to find out (from Sean) why it ended. I won't go into detail about it but the couple started spreading rumours about Sean and something that he supposedly did, but like I said if you KNOW Sean you would know how outrageous that accusation is.
Now my point is that the talk has since died down, but the effect that it has had on Sean is long lasting. He still is upset about it today and I know that he wishes that it never happened. But since we can't go back in time we have to live with the far reaching effects of such hurtful talk.
This action has not just hurt one friendship, it has ended a few others because these other "friends" choose to believe this other "friend" instead of having the nerve to go to Sean and find out what really happened form his mouth and not the rumours that were going around.

Now to the real point of all that....I have an old friend who is going thru something right now. I don't know much of the details, but it is not my place to judge or say things out of turn. If I were to have any questions about what is going on then my responsibility is to ask her about it and not listen to what is being said by other. Isn't that what friendship is all about anyway...being responsible for our actions and not saying things that hurt and destroy?
Rumours hurt and destroy friendships and no matter what people do later, you may just not be able to repair that damage.

Friendship

For the last little while I have been thinking about friendship and the kinds of friends that I have in my life right now. There are 2 people that I have in my life that are 2 polar oppisites when it comes to being a true friend.

One has been going thru one of the toughest times that a mom of 3 can go thru. She is going thru a divorce and for the first few months of it was homeless as her husband technically kick her and the kids out of the house. Even with nowhere to go and moving from house to house for months she made time for her friends and we (I) made time for her. Now with her life heading back in the direction of calm she is still making the time for her friends. She just didn't rely on them for the hard times she relies on the during the good times too. I envy her strength and determination and the fact that in the face of utter desperation she kept her head high and knew that in the end she and her children would be better off. They have grown as a family unit and she is a stronger person for all that she has endured.

I have/had this other friend that says that she is going thru a tough time in her life although I wouldn't know as she has not talked to me in about a year. there has been the odd time that we have talked. She came to see me in the hospital and a monthe later we went for dinner, but in the mean time and in between time she has not called or talked to me at all. I used to call her all the time and finally got tired of being the one that always called or wwent out of my way to talk to her. I used to go talk to her at church in the library. A couple of weeks ago during R/S I was sitting with my SIL and sister and one chair down form me sat my "friend" she totally and completely ignored me and I got to thinking that she usually does and it has been me that goes to talk to her. I wonder what I did that ticked her off so much that she feels that ignoring me is the answer. I have noticed that she talks and does things with other people so it must be that I did something to make her feel that I am not even worth the time or effort to talk to anymore. I have been debating whether or not I should talk to her about it and lay it all on the line. Most people I have tlak to about it think that I need to "clear the air" as it were as I have nothing to lose.

I guess I was just thinking that there are the true friends that don't push people aside in their tough times. Then there are those "friends" that may just use the excuse that they are going thru a rough patch to exit a friendship.

I am really glad for the true friends that make me feel good about myslef and even in their times of need they still make the time to find out what is going in the life of their friends.

I think that we all need to take the time to thank those people in our lives who we have the pleasure of calling our friends.

So thank you to all my friends that I am glad that also call me friend. You all know who you are and you all mean a lot to me and I am glad that I have you in my life.

Concerns

I have been noticing some things in Michaela's behaviour that makes me wonder if there is something that is amiss in her lately. She has always had a really hard time with change whether that be a new class, a new teacher, new students in her class or even if we change activities. These have always been hard adjustments for her but lately there ahve been other things that she has been doing that make me wonder. For instance she has been taking he clothes out of her drawers and laying them down in rows on her floor. Her underwear, socks all neatly laid out in rows and she haas also been pairing her pants with her shirts and laying them on the floor in a row too. Then there is the stuffed animals that have certain ends of the bend and pillows that they sleep on. If I am to move any of these things a temper tamtrum ensues. She is the one that has to put them away, but out they come the next day, it is almost ritualistic.
Now I am not sure if this act is just her needing to have control over something in her life or if it is something else entirely, like OCD. Now I have been thinking OCD because it is closely linked to ADHD (for those who don't know, her dad is ADHD) and I wonder if this is how it is manifesting itself in her. There is also a possibility that I am worried about nothing, but I would rather know now before she goes into kindergarten in September. I would rather her be diagnosed with OCD rather than labelled as a problem child because of her reactions to things that happen to her.

On another note, Hunter doesn't go for his MRI until June 30 quite a long wait, but at least he will be a little older and able to deal with the sedation better.

Sean is still not going to church and I don't know how to get him back. He blames the members for their lack of caring and says they are hypocritical. Other than supporting him right now so he knows that I love him and want him to be happy I don't know what to do about it all. I feel that if he knows that I love him and want him to come back than he will realize that he wants it too. He says he knows what he is doing isn't right, but he still knows the church is true, but right now is angry at the people and doesn't want to step inside the building right now. He is at the point that he deson't see the point of going to a building to prove that he believes. So yeah I am at a loss, but as long as I keep going and taking the kids then maybe one day he will surprise me and go with us.

Logan right now is just being his fun loving self and aside from a few melt downs he is a happy loving boy who is giving no reason to worry, for the tiem being...that being said I am always ready for the next thing to happen.

I got a call from Hunter's pedeatrician yesterday and they are schedueling him for an MRI because the base of his spine from the ultrasound was not visable. I knew that was going to happen, but doesn't lessen the anxiety as they will have to sedate him to get it done. Not fun for a 2 month old, but at least we will know what the deal is and wether or not anything needs to be done.

I am a firm believer in NOT having the kids sleep in Sean's and my bed. It is our place where the kids are not allowed to intrude upon. Michaela was never in bed with us even when she was first born. Logan slept in bed with me (while Sean slept on the couch) for the first week as he had jaundice and that was it. After he was jaundice free he was in his own bed and has been ever since. Now we come to Hunter, because I was really sore after this c-section, he slept in bed with me (Sean was again on the couch) for the first week and ever since I have been paying for it. He has been really hard to get to sleep after his nighttimes feeds. The last couple of nights I have been up with him for at least an hour after he eats while he fusses. I would finally get him to sleep, I would go to put him in his crib and just as I was settling back into bed he would start fussing again. Sometimes all it would take was putting his soother back in his mouth rock him in the crib and that would do it. Lately he as gotten me out of bed 3-4 times after each feeding (and lately he has been getting up 3 times a night). At this point I am so frustrated that I give up and bring him into bed with me and what do you know he falls right asleep. Yet if I was to move he wakes up and it all starts over again.
Lately, he hasn't just been fussy at night, he has been fussy all day too. Nothing I do seems to make him feel any better, or for that matter me. This last week has been hard on me. I hope that both Hunter and I make it thru and get some sleep.

Random Stuff

1. Hunter had his ultra sound yesterday and I won't have the results until I hear from my doctor which I hope will be in the week.
2. I heard about the offer that I put in for the consignment store and I am number 2 on the list so if anything happens with the offer that she choose then it will go to me. But I am thinking that I want to open a comsignment store regardless of the way it goes. If it happens to be Cater Tot then great if not then I will look into opening one up on my own.
3. I have this pet peeve that rears its ugly head every once in awhile. It's nothing really major but it really bugs me none the less. I REALLY HATE mouth noises. Doesn't matter who's making them people or dogs. It's like nails on a chalkboard to me. I could be sound asleep and the dogs will start licking or doing whatever it is they do with their mouths and it will jerk me right out of a sound sleep.
4. Another pet peeve is the fact that I am a loud swallower. Have been all my life. Don't know why and don't know why it doesn't seem to happen all the time.
5. As all mothers know, when you have a newborn you are up at least once during the night to feed a hungry baby. I am no different and I have been watching some late night TV each time I am up. Sometimes it happens to be an infomercial (as long as it is a good one). When I can't find a good one I watch stupid TV shows like "Married..with children" (when you're tired it seems that you will watch almost anything). But even during the wee hours of the morning I can' help but wonder "what in the world is someone like the Darcy's - who are well off, doing living in the same naighbourhood as the Bundy's- who are white trailer trash without the trailer?" I know, that's what lack of sleep will do to a person.
6. We decided to put a TV in Logan's room in the hopes that it will give us some time to ourselves and time when we don't have to watch "Treehouse". I was amazed to discover that by doing so we have drastically decreased the time that the kids spend in front of the TV. They play more upstairs (sometimes the TV is on, but they aren't watching it.) Who knew?

I got the go ahead

Well the doctor has given me the go ahead to start some light exercises until I get stronger to run like I used to. So for now it's all about walking and light pilates. I hope that it doesn't take too long to get back to the place that I was before I got pregnant. Sean has promised me that if I get to where I like myself.(fit and strong) then he will take me on a trip next year. So I am looking forward to that. It just means that I have some work to do. I have given myself a goal of 40 lbs (but if I get the strength that I used to have before that weight goal then I will be happy). I used to be able to wrestle with Sean and not feel the pain that I feel now.
So I have an appointment with my family doctor to get help with my eating habits/diet plan. I have also become interested in the Turbo Jam program (I found it during one of my many nights while I was up nursing Hunter). I think that I may actually buy this system when I get stronger. If you have heard of this program use any other that focus on the core area let me know as that is the area that I need to focus most of my attention. It is lacking from the 3 c-sections that I have undergone in the last 4 years.

Just a typical Wednesday

Today, Hunter had his pediatrician's appointment and I am relieved to say that there is nothing neurologically wrong with him, but they are sending him for an ultrasound to figure out what is causing the "pukering" of the skin, then later they will do an MRI because they can determine more (but it is too invasive for a baby). It was a big concern of mine that he would have difficulty with walking in the future, but that is not the case so that is a big relief to me.
Last night was a hard one on me. Hunter was up every 2 1/2 hours to eat and then it would take an extra hour to put him back to sleep. His 12am feed was particularly hard on me cause he was he fed until 12:30 then didn't settle down until 1:45 and then decided that he was hungry again at 2:30 and then it just went down hill from there. I know that in the future I am going to miss the closeness of these moments, but right now I would really like to sleep longer than an hour at a time. You know I evern tried to suppliment him with formula but he didn't sleep any longer so I determined that there was no point in that anymore. Oh well one night he will surprise me and sleep the night away.

He is growing fast so that is good. He already weighs 9lbs 13ozs and for my babies at this age that is HUGE!!! But he is on the short side like Logan. Although he is taller than Logan was at this age, so Hunter may end up being the BIG little brother.

Not much else is going on in my life at the moment, excpet the fact that I am seriously considering going into the consignment business. The one in Airdrie is for sale and I am looking into what I need to do and what kinds of things I need to get to make this a reality. I think that I need to get out of the house a bit more. But the idea of working in an office setting is not one that appeals to me. I am a people person and need a job that gives me that opportunity to interact with people just like I had while I was waitressing. We will see how this goes and if it is menat to be then I hope that it will work it self out. Then I can hire my best friend to manage it for me then she will have to more up here.

So tonight I was in my room sorting some files from a client when Michaela came in and said
"Mom, I drew on my wall and Logan drew on his"
"What?" I said as I got up and went to see what she was talking about.
"No, no, mom don't look at it yet, it's not finished"
I walked into Logan's room and there on his wall was a murial that she had drew. I made my way into her room and there was the writing on the wall, as it were.
We made them clean up their little graffitti and as Michaela was cleaning up one of the walls in her room, she told me that it was her "No Boys Allowed" sign.
Well now that it is all cleaned up and they are in bed, I can see now that they were expressing their creative side, however, I would have like to have seen that creativity on a piece of paper rather than on their walls.

Don't know what is wrong

Well for those of you who don't know our third and final child was born Dec 3 2008 via C-section. The poor little guy went unnamed until the last day in the hospital and the name he ended up with was Sean Hunter Ray Sanderson, he goes by Hunter. He looks like a a splitting image of big sister Michaela (only in boy form). I have been finding it hard to get back on the swing od things and I have work to do that I am finding it hard to organize my time to get it done. Hunter is keeping me quite busy. It feels like I am constatly feeding him and can't seem to get motivated to get started. I am trying to get my house clean and the other kids fed and dinners made and laundry done and bills paid and all the other stuff that comes with being a SAHM and throwing another child into the mix (especailly one that is nursing) seems to throw everything off balance. So unfortunately my work is suffering and I really need to get it going so that I am not to far behind. But I was ready to sit down tonight to get started on the organization of the files and Hunter demanded my attention so I had to put that on hold to feed him and now here I sit looking at the massive work staring back at me not knowing how to get motivated to get started again.

I have also been going through bouts of depression not knowing if I can really do this and feeling alone, stressed and losing patience and not knowing where to turn. I feel that I am losing myself and am being swallowed up by the ever pressing demands that are made on me every day. I don't know how to claw my way out of the hole that I feel that I have fallen into.

Well enough of that, on a lighter note, Michaela has started to "feed" one of her stuffies. If you are thinking that by "feeding" I mean Breast Feeding then you are correct. Sean came down the other night just mortified that she was nursing her stuffie. I thought that it was cute and each time I say that I need to feed Hunter out comes her toy and up goes her shirt and promptly latches it on herself and feeds it. Then she says "I beaty you Mommy". Who knew it was a race.

Hunter goes to a pediatrician next week for a variety of reasons. The most pressing is the fact that he has a wierd "Y" shape at the base of his spine along with 2 parinidal dimples (pits) along the "Y" shape. I hope that all is well and that I am worried for nothing, but better safe than sorry..right? He is also puking all the time but still gaining weight. right now he is 9lbs 4 ozs so growing like a weed. There are other things too, but they are low on the list of concerns.

Well I will end this entry for today and I promise that I will be more dilligent in my entries from her on out.

8 days.....

This past friday (Nov 21) Sean and I celebrated our 5th anniversary. Man how time flies. He took me out on Saturday to dinner and a movie and we had a great time. I love how he surprises me with a phone call that says.."hey I found a sitter...I am taking you out tonight". I am looking forward to many many more happy years together with him.

I am suffering from disbelief that there is only 8 days left until this baby comes. And yes he is still unnamed. I keep giving Sean name ideas and so far nothing has peaked his interest. I have come up with Owen, Ewan, Pierce, Vaughn, Tiernan, Talon, and so on and so on. So who knows what this little one will end up for a name. When we have settled on a name I will let you in on what is the big question in our house hold.

Other than that there is really nothing to report. I am trying to get caught up on work before I go to the hospital so I don't have to worry about falling to far behind. It sure is keeping me busy that's for sure.

I am looking for people to help with the kids while I am in the hospital I have some days covered, but with Sean unable to take too much time off work, we are left depending on the kindness of friends to help us out.

Well that's it for now. I will try to keep you updated more often with what is going on around here.

Randomness

Here I sit just trying to take it as easy as I can while waiting for the 3rd of December to arrive. That is the date that we will be welcoming our 3rd and final child into our family. I have been in the middle of the whole nesting phase, trying to get the boys' room in order and tidy the master bedroom. We got new furniture and so we had to set up the bedroom a litte differently and we are still tryin to to used to the new set up (so are the dogs).

I have been worried about who I can get to watch the kids while I am in the hospital (3 days) and while Sean in working. I am also hoping that my parents can take them for a few days when I get home from the hospital. Recovering from a c-section sucks. I hope that I can get this house in order to give the kids the feel of Christmas this year. Since Logan was born on the 7th I don't out the tree up until after his birthday. I want him to feel that his birthday is special. But the poor little guy won't get much of a party this year, just means that I may have to make it up to him next year. I hope that Ican find the time for Christmas shopping this year. Last year I went to Idaho for Black Friday and ot all the shopping done then, this year however, I am stuck at home while my sisters and sister-in-law head down to do their shopping.

The fact that this baby is coming so close to Christmas is concerning me. When I had Logan we had Seans mom living here so I didn't have to worry about things like getting the tree up or Christmas dinner, and with Sean as the Scrooge personified I really can't count on him to do it.

Oh and by the way this baby still doesn't have a name so I am putting out there for you to tell me what your favourite boys name is and if we choose one of those then there will be prize in it for the winner. I am looking for a unique name but nothing to out crazy. Logan was almost Tyrannus and Sean has put forward the name Radar for this one (sometimes it's hard to tell if he's joking). So PLEEAAASSEEE...help me out here I need ideas.

I'm baaaack

So I am back in the land of the living. I have been without my trusty laptop for awhile now and haven't known what to do with myself. I was able to borrow my MIL's in order to get some work done but that was pretty much it. A lot has been going on this last little while but I will have to catch you up on all the happenings at a later date.

A side note that you might be interested in, I have a tentative date in line for my C-Section as December 1st. I was hoping to NOT have 2 December babies but what can you do at least this baby won't have it's birthday in the middle of hunting season. But as of right now we still don't have a name for this little one. But if it's anthing like Logan he won't have a name until he is born.

So anyways..when I have a bit more time I will fill you in on all the fun things that have been going on in our neck of the woods

Micha's first day

Well Micha has started her first day of her last year in preschool and already she is talking about kindergarten. She was so excited about it that she started getting her backpack ready for school as soon as she woke up this mnorning. Here she is with her BFF Grace, they are pretty much inseparable. It is nice that they have each other as friends they are pretty much the same person

memories.....

Here's how it works:

1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew/know me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you (if you really don't want to play but still want to leave a comment, just leave a comment and then tell me that you would rather not play)

It's been too long.....

Well swimming lessons are over, and both kids have been moved up to the next level. I didn't think that Micha would as she had a hard time listening to her teacher. But I spoke to the teacher after and she said she passed because Micha has absolutely NO fear of the water. She could drop her in the water and Micha would come up and not be scarred. I just have to work on her listening skills, she doesn't like to listen at home either so it's a contstant battle.

Logan is pretty much done with his potty training, He's even tying to go on his own...only when he lifted the lid last night it came down and smuched his finger..what a cutie.

Micha is also finished her dance classes so now I have to find something else for her to do. I was thinking gymnastics but it is REALLY expensive, even tho I think that she would excel at it and maybe give her some discipline. (I wanted to post a picture and a video of her recital piece..but I seem to be having some issues with blogger. So I will get that done soon)

I seem to have 2 of the same person whe it comes to my kids. Logan is Micha's little parrott. Does EVERYTHING that she does and says EVERYTHING that she does and with the same tone of voice too. I hope that he will come into his own soon. I have a feeling that Micha's world will come crashing down on her when this baby is born cuz Lolo will finally realize that he doesn't have to take her guff anymore and she won't be able to boss him around or push him around without any reprocussions. It will be a sad day in the life of Michaela but a rewarding one in Lolo's life. i just hope that they can stop fighting..I know full well that THAT won't happen. it may end up getting worse.

Oh and on an end note I just want to say CONGRATULATIONS to Kim and Andrew Hawryluk who welcomed a daughter on June 19th!!!

It could have been disaterous.....

The first sunday of every month our family gets together and has a family dinner to celebrate the birthdays and anniversaries that take place that month. So yesterday we gathered for our monthly dinner and the kids were having fun palying outside while the adults were talking.

Now to give you alittle background my parents live on an acreage and on that acreage they have a swap way in the corner.

The kids were playing in the treehouse, but Logan being who he is was off on his own becasue he likes it that way. Well, Ihad this feeling to go and look for him so I walked around the acreage calling his name but got no response. I told Sean that I couldn't find him so Sean took off in another direction and heard him crying. Sean went in the direction of the screaming and found him half way out in the swamp. he had waded out into chest deep water, got stuck and was just standing there screaming.

I ran back to the house and got the boots while Sean kept an eye on him to make sure he didn't fall. I ran back and in the meantime my dad and a friend asked me where he was I yelled he was in the swamp and they ran out and so there went Sean, dad and Garry Wickwire into the swamp to pull him out. He was stuck in there good and I am thinkful that he didn't fall cause yeah...things would not be good, I wouldn't have my little boy anymore. I am thankful that he was under the protection of the Lord and that he was being protected from the worse thing that could've happened.

Well right now I am supposed to be doing some work, but I thought that I would take a few minutes and fill you in on the week. Things for the most part have been chuging along as per usual but then a gog was thrown into the wheel and i had to quit my job. Not by choice but they left me no choice.

Wednesday I got to work and noticed that they have taken away my day shift that we needed for me to make the fact that I went to work worthwhile. I was then informed that I was not going to be given another day to make up for that. I then went into my shift on Thursday and told them that 7 hours a week was not worthe the hassle and the effect on my kids for me to come into work. I was informed that they liked the way I worked and that I pick up the job really well (it was M&M meats it wasn't that tough), but that they couldn't give me more than 7 hours so I said that today (thursday) was goign to be my last shift. She asked me if I was going to give notice to which I informed her that it hasn't been three months and that I wasn't required to by law.

Then she proceeds to tell me that they are short staffed and all I could think was then why are you only giving me 7 hours a week when I am capable of working more. Sean is under the impression that they were squeezing me out because I am pregnant and they didn't want the liability of have me work for them. So they did it in a way that I really can't do anything about it. I was really upset about the whole situation and thought that they were above this kind of treatment and had hoped that I had found a company that was baove this kind of treaatment.

Well that's enough of the vent. See ya next time..

Update from the House of Sands!!!

My life these days has been pretty boring. I get up and deal with the kids all day. Take Michaela to dance class on tuesdays. I try not to feel to sick all the time. I am about to end my first trimester and head into my second so hopefully I start to feel better soon, but if my other kids are any indication that won't be happening. Thank goodness for pop and diclectin.

Logan has been starting to act out more these days. I don't know if that's because he is in his terrible 2's or if he senses something is changing..you know how sensitive kids can be. It's almost like he has 2 personalities. One we call Lolo..sweet and fun and funny and loving and just a pleasure to be around. Lolo has the sweetes smile that could light up any room that he enters. The other we call Ogar...well that pretty much explains the behaviour there..OGARISH!!!!!! NASTY and ONRY and down right MISERABLE!!!! Ogar has the most ear piercing scream and cry that I have ever heard. We never know which one we are going be facing from one minute to the next. Funny how there can be 2 totally different people in one cute little boy.

Michaela, well she is coming into her own personality. She has been starting to show mre initiative but also more attittude and lippiness. But what can you expect from a three going on 15 year old. She has friend that is her same preschool and they have formed this bond that is pretty strong for their age. It is nice to see that she is able to make friends so easily. But the other day at preschool they embraced and kissed. Now I don't know if I need to be concerned that they are showing this kind of affection. I don't remember being that affectionate with my friends. So i think that I need to sit her down and expalin that there are certain kinds of affection that is not appropriate. Or maybe I just need to chalk it up to a 3 and 4 year olds friendship and leave it there and see what happens. I know that kids are prone to kiss each other, but that doesn't make the shock of seeing it happen any less shocking.

I am trying to find the energy and the time to do my house work and my bookkeeping business and my parttime job and take care of my family It seems that tese things take all my time and I don't seem to have any time for myself or hanging with my friends and just finding the time to be me. The house work suffers so i feel that I am living in a pig stye. Sean tells me that I need to ask for more help and that if I ask him to do things he will just do them. So I guess I just need to rely on him more and maybe things will end up getting done around here.

Other than that there is nothing much going in the House of Sands these days...Michaela has graduated from her first year of preschool and they are having a Carnival on her last day on friday so that will be fun. the kids are also in swimming lessons and Michaela is in her first unparented class and seeming to do very well (which doesn't surprise me at all...she's extremely bright for a 3 year old).

Enough rambling for now, just thought that I would give you an update on all the happenings and unhappenings in our little house.
Until next time..Keep fit and have fun!

Thanks Michelle

1. Do you like blue cheese? Can't stand the stuff!!!

2. Have you ever smoked? yeah in grade 7..stupidest thing ever!

3. Do you own a gun? not me but Sean has 2 rifles..little hunter Sean

4. What flavor Kool Aid is your favorite? cherry

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? depends on why I am going, but not like I used to..having kids will do that to you.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? Only around a campfire followed by s'mores

7. Favorite Christmas movie? The original "How the Grinch Stole Christmas"

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? It has to be water for my medication then milk or OJ

9. Can you do push ups? used to want to be able to do them again post pregnancy!

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? I don't really wear jewlery. I always forget to put it on

11. Favorite hobby? Photography

12. Do you have A.D.D.? no

13. What's your weight? Not on your life am I answering that..besides I think it's healthy not to know!

14. Middle name? LaRae

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment. 3 thoughts? what am i thinking about? Oh what's the next question.

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? water, Diet pepsi, cranberry juice

17. Current worry? I really need to get our budget done!

18. Current hate right now? my messy house

19. Favorite place to be? with my family...mainly Sean

20. How did you bring in the New Year? Stayed home

21. Where would you like to go? Gay Ole Paris

22. Name three people who will complete this? Sarah, Jessica and Heather

23. Do you own slippers? Nope

24. What color shirt are you wearing right now? Red

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? I prefer mt sateen sheets.

26. Can you whistle? yep

27. Favorite color? don't really have one!

28. Would you be a pirate? Not sure

29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't sing in the shower never have never will

30. Favorite Girl's Name? Michaela

31. Favorite boy's name? I should say Logan, and even though I LOVE it, it is not my favourite..Mine is Talon

32. What's in your pocket right now? nothing -- Don't have pockets in my jammies

33. Last thing that made you laugh? Moomy..I think that I am hungry...This was said AFTER Michaela ate 12 meatballs

34. Best bed sheets as a child? plain or flowers

35. Worst injury you've ever had? broken collar bone..twice the same one!

36. Do you love where you live? sometimes!

37. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2..3 if you count the projector used for movies and sporting events!

38. Who is your loudest friend? Louise and I LOVE her for it!!!

39. How many dogs do you have? 2

40. Does someone have a crush on you? Well Sean for sure!!!

41. What is your favorite book? Anything Mary Higgins Clark and I LOVE The Witching Hour (Anne Rice) and of course Anne of Green Gables!

42. What is your favorite candy? Licorice not the red crapt...but true BLACK Licorice!!

43. Favorite Sports Team? Flames

44. What song do you want played at your funeral? I don't even want to thin about that at the moment!

Playing catch up...

So I had my first ultra sound this morning to figure out how far along I am. I am 10 weeks on the nose and much to my relief only having ONE baby. I always said that this was my last pregnancy and if i was supposed to have more than 3 kids then I would need to have them in this pregnancy. So I thought that I may have invited something that I didn't really want to deal with. So I am REALLY relieved that one is enough.

Anyways....the baby is active and I can't believe how small right now. I haven't had an ultra sound this early before so it was interesting.

Not much else is going on. I have been feeling really sick and tired and very gassy. My doctor put me on diclectin for my upset stomach and I hope that it doesn't make me too tired.

I will fill you in on all the news soon as I haven't reallt had time to think about things let alone write about them.