Concerns

I have been noticing some things in Michaela's behaviour that makes me wonder if there is something that is amiss in her lately. She has always had a really hard time with change whether that be a new class, a new teacher, new students in her class or even if we change activities. These have always been hard adjustments for her but lately there ahve been other things that she has been doing that make me wonder. For instance she has been taking he clothes out of her drawers and laying them down in rows on her floor. Her underwear, socks all neatly laid out in rows and she haas also been pairing her pants with her shirts and laying them on the floor in a row too. Then there is the stuffed animals that have certain ends of the bend and pillows that they sleep on. If I am to move any of these things a temper tamtrum ensues. She is the one that has to put them away, but out they come the next day, it is almost ritualistic.
Now I am not sure if this act is just her needing to have control over something in her life or if it is something else entirely, like OCD. Now I have been thinking OCD because it is closely linked to ADHD (for those who don't know, her dad is ADHD) and I wonder if this is how it is manifesting itself in her. There is also a possibility that I am worried about nothing, but I would rather know now before she goes into kindergarten in September. I would rather her be diagnosed with OCD rather than labelled as a problem child because of her reactions to things that happen to her.

On another note, Hunter doesn't go for his MRI until June 30 quite a long wait, but at least he will be a little older and able to deal with the sedation better.

Sean is still not going to church and I don't know how to get him back. He blames the members for their lack of caring and says they are hypocritical. Other than supporting him right now so he knows that I love him and want him to be happy I don't know what to do about it all. I feel that if he knows that I love him and want him to come back than he will realize that he wants it too. He says he knows what he is doing isn't right, but he still knows the church is true, but right now is angry at the people and doesn't want to step inside the building right now. He is at the point that he deson't see the point of going to a building to prove that he believes. So yeah I am at a loss, but as long as I keep going and taking the kids then maybe one day he will surprise me and go with us.

Logan right now is just being his fun loving self and aside from a few melt downs he is a happy loving boy who is giving no reason to worry, for the tiem being...that being said I am always ready for the next thing to happen.

It could have been disaterous.....

The first sunday of every month our family gets together and has a family dinner to celebrate the birthdays and anniversaries that take place that month. So yesterday we gathered for our monthly dinner and the kids were having fun palying outside while the adults were talking.

Now to give you alittle background my parents live on an acreage and on that acreage they have a swap way in the corner.

The kids were playing in the treehouse, but Logan being who he is was off on his own becasue he likes it that way. Well, Ihad this feeling to go and look for him so I walked around the acreage calling his name but got no response. I told Sean that I couldn't find him so Sean took off in another direction and heard him crying. Sean went in the direction of the screaming and found him half way out in the swamp. he had waded out into chest deep water, got stuck and was just standing there screaming.

I ran back to the house and got the boots while Sean kept an eye on him to make sure he didn't fall. I ran back and in the meantime my dad and a friend asked me where he was I yelled he was in the swamp and they ran out and so there went Sean, dad and Garry Wickwire into the swamp to pull him out. He was stuck in there good and I am thinkful that he didn't fall cause yeah...things would not be good, I wouldn't have my little boy anymore. I am thankful that he was under the protection of the Lord and that he was being protected from the worse thing that could've happened.

My baby boy turns 2

So on this day 2 years ago my little Logan was born. I can't tell you haow differnt he is from his sister....in EVERY way. Even my pregnancy with him was easier and I didn't have to go through all the complications that I had with her with him. i had to have a C-section with him as I had an emergency one with his sister and then we got pregnant too soon. So to be safe, I had a planned one with Logan which is much easiwe in every sense than an emergency one.

He has brought joy to our lives and is such alittle comedian. He likes to laugh and to make everyone around him laugh. In order to know what I mean...you just have to witness it first hand. He is stubborn and has a temperment equal to that of his daddy's. Which when he is having his fits 9as he is right now now up in his room)..it is NOT pleasant. He will scream forEVER if I let him and at times I AM tempted.

He loves his family and loves to play. Right now his favourite thing to play is TACKLE!!!! adn you are right..his father taught him how to tackle and he LOVES it. He also likes to wrestle and he werstles his sister all day long. Sometimes he doesn't know how to stand up for himself and Michaela takes advantage of that. He is really easy going and will give up anything if it means that the other person is happy. He does mostly everything that is asked of him. He is a real bundle of joy and love.

Logan my son, you have brought joy into our family and you give us reasons to smile every day. Your laugh is infectious and you love to spread it all over the place. You are a light in my life and our family would not be complete without you in it. You love your family and it shows. You are not afraid to show your emotions and your feeling. I hope you never lose that ability, yet I hope that you find the ability to stand up for yourself. Your family loves you as does your Father in Heaven and we all want the best for you.

So on this special day of your second birthday.. I hope you never forget how special you are and how much you are loved.

Love,

Mommy